Well guys, I freaking did it. With the help of coffee, wine, Quizlet and free tutoring in the campus library, my dream of receiving my college degree finally came to fruition. And to be honest, it’s still a bit surreal. And also, it was much harder than I ever expected! But man, having something that you work so hard for that you will be able to use and show for the rest of your life is one hell of a feeling, and the late nights and lack of social life in between made it all worth it once I crossed that stage.
So.. here I am. A twenty-something college graduate. Hi. Um. Now what?
You know those days that require an extra large glass of wine and a Netflix-binge session featuring Friends? The days where you do so little but still feel so exhausted? The days where you tell yourself “fake it until you make it” but by 2pm you’re crying in your car while blasting Taylor Swift’s “Shake it Off”?
Okay cool, because SAME. The last few weeks (OKAY maybe like month) for me have been.. heavy. And straining. And a test for my mental health. Without diving too much into what has caused me so much pain, the two events that have hit me the hardest have been the loss of my dog, Joey, who also happened to be my best friend. It’s almost been a month and I still to this day cannot go downstairs at night to watch my DVR shows (we always did this together), or look at any pictures of him. It’s still too much.
The second event that has left me completely devastated happened last Tuesday night.
I mean it wasn’t a huge deal and nobody’s really talking about it but.. *I say sarcastically*
The election has rocked me to my core. The two words that come to mind when I think about how this played out are sickening and disgusting. Truly, as a writer and a lover of books these are the ONLY TWO WORDS I can come up with. I was left speechless. A narcissistic man that had the most hate-filled, racially charged campaign with a dose of sexual assault and xenophobia is now the President-elect of the United States of America. I could write an entire novel on my feelings about the fact a sociopath is running our country, but I don’t want this post to be on what is making my recent days so hard.
It’s crazy to think about everything we live through as twenty-somethings. Some of the most crucial and important times of our lives happen during THIS DECADE. It’s insane. And it’s also why the drinking age happens in our early twenties because wine just like, makes everything better.
I spend a lot of time alone, which also means I spend a lot of time reflecting and thinking of where my life is now and how I got to this place. I also spend a lot of time on social media (#TypicalMillennial), so I am constantly seeing updates from peers about where they are in THEIR life. As I was scrolling through Facebook the other day, in a matter of 20 minutes, I saw two different high school friends get engaged, I saw pictures from a wedding, I saw an end-of-summer couple trip, and I saw pictures from a Bachelorette party in Tahoe.
Emotional OVERLOAD, from your fellow single twenty-something.